Lets just say i've been hibernating. the last few days i've just been wanting to sleep and be home cuddled up watching svu and i've done just that. some cleaning too, since i'm home. it feels good to relax in a clean space.
Here we are at the end of November. Another thanksgiving and another holiday season upon us. It's daunting, exhausting and stressful. But I am grateful. I have successfully gotten my solo project off the ground. It still has some flight to take, but it's beginning, and I'm excited.
every day is the day before. day before what, we don't know. we can guess, we can plan and god will laugh us all the way to the next thing, as if we could really know what lies ahead.
I'm feeling a lot today. And, it is too much. There are breaking points and I think we're all at them...
i remember when i was in 6th or 7th grade. i was a cheerleader, a cross country runner, just started doing musical theatre, and as any pre teen would be, i was emotionally unstable. i wanted an eating disorder. one of my cheerleading mates had commented on how much heavier i was than the other girl who got thrown up in the air. and it sent me over the edge.
My chest hurts. I feel a pain in my lower left rib cage area. My lower back has had enough. My heart strains and pulses off beat and it feels like a hiccup sometimes. My right foot is larger than my left and has a bunion on it that makes walking in high heels torture and I almost broke my ankle on set yesterday because in order to look like Katy Perry one must wear heels.
I made a video with my best friend Manna Star of Alternative Younicorn! Come watch us be dorky! =-)